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The truth as I see it
Most people who know me would probably tell you I am honest to a fault. Most people don’t know how much I don’t say. I am constantly filtering. I will try not to do that here. I’ve heard lots of clichés about truth and I won’t bore you with them here. Suffice it to say…
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Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes
Yesterday I was talking with some friends and we were talking about how there is a place shortly before making actual changes that most of us want the consequences of our behavior to change but we don’t actually want to change. For example, most addicts want to stop going to jail, most alcholics want to…
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Everything Will Be OK
I believe my soul knows all things. It is this body, this mind, this ego that keeps me stuck. They want me to believe that we an control pain and in the attempt to control pain, they actually create more pain. My soul knows it has a job to do. It even knows what the…
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Sex, Love and Relationships (Part 6): An Independent Woman
I know, I know…this topic has been done and by much better writers than me but today I need to write it. I was raised by two very independent women. My Gramma raised 3 kids by herself during The Depression and my Mom raised the 3 of us by herself. And let’s be clear, Gramma…
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Sex, Love and Relationships (Part 5): What is love anyway?
I was talking to a boyfriend once a very long ago and he asked me how many men I had loved. Now, let’s be clear, he wasn’t asking how many men I had slept with, he was asking how many men I had felt love for. I don’t recall the number I gave him but…
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First Kisses
I’ve always loved kissing. It’s fun. It can be sweet. It can be passionate. It can be quick or long or deep. Sometimes they are big, wet, squishy kisses. All the kisses are good! Some years ago, I noticed myself shifting from Mother to Crone. I could feel this shift to becoming the old one,…
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Mere Opinion
I come from a loooooong line of people who like to talk. Oh sure, there are some that are quiet (like my son) but most are talkers. And the thing about talkers is that, while they may have facts and research behind them, most talkers are giving their opinion about the thing they have facts/research…
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To love deeply…if not well
In my 20s, I loved a man in the way only the young love: with every ounce of my being and with a wee bit of crazy. I lived for him. I would have died for him or killed for him. And I knew he loved me. We were young and he was a guy…
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Oh the feelings!
Yes, sure I am an alcoholic and a drug addict. I have also been diagnosed with depression and bipolar (although when I was diagnosed bipolar, it was still called manic-depressive so that may say something). I have two parents that both had problems with alcohol: neither of them ever did anything to recover from it,…
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I-DON’T-WANT-TO!
There is a time right before a alcoholic or drug addict gets sober/clean where they want the consequences of their addiction to stop but they want to keep drinking/using with the old pleasure they once had. Sometimes this period can go on for years while the person tries varied ways to keep doing what they…
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Eloise
The moss was cool under her bare feet. Her eyes scanned the forest floor for the leaves of that very specific plant she sought. These were her favorite days… The hottest days of August when the air smelled of baked forest… When then shade of the dense forest canopy kept her cool and the slightest…
Claiming My Voice: From the darkness, the light emerges. 