Tag: life
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For the Women Who Came Before
As I sit here and weep for all the women who came before me, I find myself needing to write this post. Let me be clear…I do not weep for their loss (although there are so many wonderful women we could use on the planet right now). I weep in gratitude for their tenacity and…
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Not for Nothing
Trigger warning: This post contains discussions of suicide and other tender things. This is also going to be a bit long…consider yourself warned 😉 I spent my 16th birthday in a mental hospital for trying to kill myself. It was not the first time. It was not the last time. Since I am writing this,…
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Message in a bottle
I did not write the main content of this. I hope I honor the person who did by making it public. I want them to be seen.
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Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes
Yesterday I was talking with some friends and we were talking about how there is a place shortly before making actual changes that most of us want the consequences of our behavior to change but we don’t actually want to change. For example, most addicts want to stop going to jail, most alcholics want to…
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Sex, Love and Relationships (Part 6): An Independent Woman
I know, I know…this topic has been done and by much better writers than me but today I need to write it. I was raised by two very independent women. My Gramma raised 3 kids by herself during The Depression and my Mom raised the 3 of us by herself. And let’s be clear, Gramma…
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Sex, Love and Relationships (Part 5): What is love anyway?
I was talking to a boyfriend once a very long ago and he asked me how many men I had loved. Now, let’s be clear, he wasn’t asking how many men I had slept with, he was asking how many men I had felt love for. I don’t recall the number I gave him but…
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First Kisses
I’ve always loved kissing. It’s fun. It can be sweet. It can be passionate. It can be quick or long or deep. Sometimes they are big, wet, squishy kisses. All the kisses are good! Some years ago, I noticed myself shifting from Mother to Crone. I could feel this shift to becoming the old one,…
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Mere Opinion
I come from a loooooong line of people who like to talk. Oh sure, there are some that are quiet (like my son) but most are talkers. And the thing about talkers is that, while they may have facts and research behind them, most talkers are giving their opinion about the thing they have facts/research…
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To love deeply…if not well
In my 20s, I loved a man in the way only the young love: with every ounce of my being and with a wee bit of crazy. I lived for him. I would have died for him or killed for him. And I knew he loved me. We were young and he was a guy…
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Oh the feelings!
Yes, sure I am an alcoholic and a drug addict. I have also been diagnosed with depression and bipolar (although when I was diagnosed bipolar, it was still called manic-depressive so that may say something). I have two parents that both had problems with alcohol: neither of them ever did anything to recover from it,…
