Category: Truth
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To love deeply…if not well
In my 20s, I loved a man in the way only the young love: with every ounce of my being and with a wee bit of crazy. I lived for him. I would have died for him or killed for him. And I knew he loved me. We were young and he was a guy…
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Oh the feelings!
Yes, sure I am an alcoholic and a drug addict. I have also been diagnosed with depression and bipolar (although when I was diagnosed bipolar, it was still called manic-depressive so that may say something). I have two parents that both had problems with alcohol: neither of them ever did anything to recover from it,…
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I-DON’T-WANT-TO!
There is a time right before a alcoholic or drug addict gets sober/clean where they want the consequences of their addiction to stop but they want to keep drinking/using with the old pleasure they once had. Sometimes this period can go on for years while the person tries varied ways to keep doing what they…
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Me?!
A while back, like maybe 16 or 17 years ago, I was at work and a co-worker was talking to me about his life and asking for my advice. Part way through the conversation, I asked him why he was asking for my advice. I couldn’t conceive of why he would want any of my…
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A New Perspective
Recently I got to ride with one of my city’s police officers. It was great experience! I learned a lot. I’ll give you some of the take-aways here (I may add more as stuff comes to me): -Cops are people too: I think the biggest take-away is that I think most police officers are just…
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My 21st
If you have been paying attention, you know I was drinking long before my 21st birthday so you’d think that celebrating that birthday wouldn’t have been any big deal. While it wasn’t necessarily a big deal, it was great! Saturday Night/Southern California: A handful of friends and I (and a bunch of other patrons) stood…
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The Courage of Visibility
I don’t know what year or even what era it was when we all started talking about “being seen” but I do recall thinking it was a pretty cool concept. Like so many things, I think we have taken it over the top and if I hear “I see you” from one more person who…
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Do Be Do Be Do
I remember the first time someone suggested I stop doing and just be. It sounded so profound. What if I stopped trying to work harder? What if I stopped trying to make sure people liked me? What if I stopped being so productive in my life…not just at work but at home? It came at…
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Pain is OK
I’ve heard it said, or maybe written, that pain is mandatory but suffering is optional. Well I’m here to tell you that historically I neither do pain nor suffering well. As a young person, emotional pain tipped me over regularly. It was my inability to cope with pain that sent me into the arms of…
